Happy New Year to you all.
It's been awhile since I've posted anything. But I've been doing a lot of thinking lately about what the New Year has to offer.
2010 proved to be a year of many findings and changes.
I found out that I had skin cancer in May and with the prompt attention of a great doctor, had it removed and am now cancer free.
With the scare of cancer, I realized that it was time to make some changes in my personal life. So, I separated and left a 12-yr relationship to explore a new journey in my life...April's World: The Real Life. Sometimes I think it should be made into a movie. LOL! And all the things that I thought would happen when I became single, never did happen. I really thought that I had a lot of pent up frustration and energy that I would need to blow off and just go crazy. I expected to drink myself into an oblivion every night. The reasons I drank before were to escape my reality, and where I used to drink an entire bottle of wine, now I drink a glass of wine. But I'm happy with my life now and have no reason to drink to escape my reality. I love my reality. Responsibility has become more evident than ever in my life...and I think that it's for the better. I have no one to depend on now but myself and I love it! There is such great freedom in that...more than I ever realized before.
I survived a serious accident in October with the help of the good Lord above and I'm pretty sure I had a guardian angel looking over me that night...as the insurance adjuster said, "I can't believe you walked away from that accident!" Now I have a pretty red truck, like I always wanted. And I didn't need anyone to go with me to help me make the deal. I did it all on my own. I didn't have to be rude to the car salesman, I didn't have to be ugly to the finance guys. And I got the truck I wanted for the money I wanted to pay for it!
In December, my career path changed. I never expected to be waiting tables for my soul source of income at the age of 35, but for now, it brings a mental vacation that I have longed for for many years. I have decided to go into partnership with a great friend for a photography business called Life's Reflections. Although, I am not able to dedicate my every waking hour to Life's Reflections at this time, I feel that in the future, it will be a successful business and it will become a main source of income. Photography is something that I've always been interested in, but I lack the technical aspects of it. Something I hope to pick up in the near future. There is another opportunity knocking at the door and once I've got a little more time invested in it, I'll be sharing that as well. But the important thing is that I am supporting myself financially.
I'm also dating the man that I've been in love with since I was 13 years old. The dating scene has been something to get used to after all the years being married. But I love that I have time to myself, time with my friends, and time with my man. I gave up a lot of my friends when I was married, but no more. The only thing that keeps me from spending too much time with my friends now is work. I miss having my weekends free and getting to go away on weekend trips but those days won't be gone forever.
After much reflection over the past year, I welcome the new year and what it has to bring. The future is what we make it. I lived the last 20 something years living for others, this time, I live for myself! I will do what I want and I will reap the benefits, I will accept the challenges and I will accept defeat when necessary!
