Loneliness Isn't A Bad Thing

For the first time in several weeks, I feel free!  Free to express myself, free to say what I want, do what I want...it's so refreshing!  Even though I've had this freedom for a few months now, it just now seems real! 

I feel a great sense of accomplishment and I feel as if I have taken control of my life again!  A good friend recently told me to not look at loneliness as a bad thing...and over the last few months I have been doing just that! 

I'm slowly figuring out that loneliness is not a bad thing.  I make small trips alone to show myself that it's ok to be alone!  One of my biggest fears is spending my life alone.  Eating at a sit-down restaurant alone is terrifying to me!  But, twice now, I've gone specifically to a sit-down joint, just to sit and eat alone...to show myself that it's ok.  And ya know what?  It wasn't so bad...of course, it's not something that I want to do on a daily basis...if you know me, you know that I'm a social butterfly and prefer being around people. 

So, Sunday, I chose to take a stroll around the square...ALONE!!!  And I realized that I thoroughly enjoyed walking in and out of the stores that I wanted to go in and spent as much time or as little time in each store as I wanted!  And it was a blessing to be able to spend this time with myself.  I actually felt a slight bit of relief from the stress that had taken it's toll on me last week! 

What's the next thing to do ALONE?  I'm not sure, but stay tuned!!  I'm thinking a road trip of some sort would be fun!  But I'm kinda scared of that too!  But the best way to face your fears is to challenge it and face it head on!